Lambeth Council Housing3

the wall insulation lambeth have just done - its coming thru the walls into my flat. lambeth are so caring about how their tenants live....

Lambeth Council Housing2

more examples of how nice my flat is

Lambeth Council Housing

this is how i have been expected to live since 2001/2, the bathroom is a health hazard and now the new wall insulation has come thru into my flat

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peace

i am trying to find some peace at the moment, trying to get on with living, am struggling but need so brightness and colour to lift my spirits

monday 4th oct

i am still struggling to deal with events, am not coping well at all. my inner strength seems to have left me. life goes on, i know, and i have to try to find a job in the midst of this nightmare or risk loosing my state benefits. there is no compassion from the employment ppl, just pressure to find a job.
how can i look for a job or go for an interview when all i am doing is reliving my nightmare?
i am dreading the trial, and yet i know i have to do it-i have to try and find out WHY? why did he do this, why did he destroy me?
i am angry at myself for feeling like this, surely i should be strong and full of determination to fight back, i am not tho. i lay awake all night reliving that night, it just wont stop. a few minutes peace in the day then am back in that place again.
all these years i have longed for death so i can just have peace, i am too weak to kill myself, i dont even have the courage to do that.
all i can hope for is that it will finally give me closure.

september 4th 1990